For some reason these song lyrics made sense to me today. Sometimes the music gods know just what you need to hear.
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Hand In My Pocket, Alanis Morissett
I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

it's like charades for the internet age
I am a little bit obsessed with this. It's supposed to be a way to help the folks over at Google better tag their photos for searches so that when I type in the word "horse" I'm actually directed to images that somehow relate to a horse. But really it has just become this weirdly fun game for me and I find myself talking to the screen and my online partner when they don't obviously think to describe a picture of said horse as, oh, I don't know, brown. Anyway, if you are looking for a way to procrastinate then try this. It's good stuff.

Holiday Playlist
1) I Want A Hippopotamus for Christmas--Gayla Peevey
2) Hard Candy Christmas--Dolly Parton
3) All I Want for Christmas (Is You)--Mariah Carey
4) It's Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas--Various Artists
5) White Christmas--Bing Crosby
6) Carol of the Bells--Various Artists
7) Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas--Various Artists
8) I'll Be Home for Christmas--Various Artists
9) Celebrate Me Home--Kenny Loggins
10) Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer--Various Artists
11) The Christmas Song --Nat King Cole
12) Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer--Elmo & Patsy

*Bonus Disc--The Barbra Streisand Christmas Album

Today's Horoscope

"You are getting back in the saddle of defining your own destiny."

I like that, and I'm going to try really hard to believe it.

Bullet Bitten
Money is one hell of an incentive, we all know that. The right amount of cash, or in this case credit with monthly interest accrual, can get people to do things that they wouldn't normally want to do. For me that has finally shown itself in my new gym membership. I hate that I joined a gym. Not because I have anything against them but because I hate spending money for what is essentially something I can do for free. I can go outside and run around and burn calories at no additionqal cost, but I don't. I could continue to purchase workout DVDs at a minimal cost and receive a return on my investment much quicker than a gym membership but I own those and I don't use them. And that's where the money for the gym thing comes into play. Yes it is an ungodly amount I have just payed for something I will likely get tired of or bored with or lose interest with soon but I bit the bullet because somehow, that amount of money is exactly the kind of incentive that works for me. I have taken different types of exercise classes on and off for the last decade of my life and each class I have taken, after the money has been payed, I don't miss class. The money seems to be the only thing that keeps me involved and motivated. With my gym membership comes a wide variety of classes I can take along with general use of the gym. I even managed to crawl out of bed this morning and hit the treadmill before work. And I have a session with a trainer in a couple of days at 7am. Ugh!

So I have payed the money, which I rationalized by reminding myself that I spend at least that much each month on frivilous things, why can't I spend it on my own physical well being. And I am going to (try to) go to classes and all that other stuff on a regular basis for at least the next three months. Yeah, you caught that...I purchased the temporary membership to see if it's really going to be a good fit. I know me and even though I payed the money I'm not quite ready to fully commit, not just yet. Let's just hope that the next few months are worth their weight in credit card gold.